Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Christmas Coda 26

Glen and Nash from IN PLAIN SIGHT



Nash did not have any holiday traditions. He had holiday habits. Christmas dinner with his parents every couple of years. New Year’s parties with work colleagues. Gifts of booze to male colleagues and gifts of coffee to female colleagues. He probably hadn’t bought a Christmas tree since he’d had college roommates to help decorate it.

So that had been the first question. “Should we get a Christmas tree?”

Well, not the first question. The first questions had taken place while Glen was still in the hospital recovering. Those had been the big questions: where are we going to live and who’s giving up his job? A two-part question really. And he’d known the answer before he asked.

He would transfer to the Salt Lake Division and work out of Pocatello. He told himself Glen required every penny of his health insurance right now, so that meant Glen needed his job more, but the fact was, Nash was embarking on a new life and that meant from now on his job was just that, a job. He’d sell his house in Fredericksburg and move in with Glen.

“Are you sure?” Glen had asked more than once. As happy as he was, he was afraid Nash was making a mistake. And if Nash was honest, he occasionally wondered too. But then he would think of that terrible, terrible time when he had not known whether Glen was alive or dead, and everything seemed clear again.

His house was still on the market — it was not a good time to try and sell — and it had taken six months for his transfer to go into effect, so he and Glen had been living together for less than two months by the time the holidays rolled around.

They were still getting to know each other so they were a little careful with each other. Well, a lot careful.

Glen had admitted once, revealingly, “It’s like we’re doing this backwards.”

“Do you mind?”

“Compared to the alternative?”

That was exactly right. They were starting from the standpoint of knowing they loved each other and wanted to be together. But could you really love someone you didn’t know?

It seemed the answer was yes, because Nash did believe he loved Glen. More than he had ever loved anyone in his life. Every morning that he woke up beside Glen was a good morning. It just felt right. It felt like he was finally home. It didn’t matter who technically owned the real estate. He felt Glen’s smiles in his chest. He felt at peace listening to Glen’s quiet breathing in the night. And his not quiet breathing made him smile. He liked talking to Glen over breakfast and not talking to him over breakfast. They didn’t have enough dinners together, but he enjoyed those too.

He was regularly adding to the small store of everything he knew about Glen. He now knew that Glen liked basketball and photography and fishing and camping. He was an Independent, a non-church-going Protestant, and he did not want children. He did not care about marriage, but he cared very much about commitment. He was close to his family and generally spent the holidays he didn’t work with them.

Which brought them full circle.

“A Christmas tree? Sure,” Glen had said. And then, “I don’t have any decorations or anything. But if you want a tree…”

“I just thought maybe you would,” Nash said hastily. Now he felt silly. He never bothered with this kind of holiday stuff.

Glen had looked undecided, and then he’d said, “Well…”

Nash joked, “Are we the kind of guys who get a Christmas tree?”

Glen stared at him and then he’d seemed to relax. “I think we are. I think we should…” Then he’d stopped looking self-conscious.

“Should get a tree?” Nash said.

Glen had said, “Should start building our own traditions.” He’d looked so serious and hopeful that it had been all Nash could do not to grab him then and there.

That was it exactly. They needed to build traditions together. Their own traditions.

And just the process of picking their first tree was instructive.

“Real or fake?” Nash had asked.

“Real.” Glen had been definite.

“Do we chop our own or —?”

“What do you think?”

“I’m not a lumberjack.”

Glen had laughed. “That’s okay. I’ve had my fill of lumberjacks.”

Nash had spluttered, but moved on. “Flocked or unflocked?”

“It kills the scent.”

Nash had volunteered, “But it is pretty.”

“Flocked it is,” Glen had said easily.

“So. The important question. How big?”

Glen had met Nash’s eyes and started to laugh. Nash had grabbed him then.

Glen’s mother had supplied a handful of family ornaments that probably qualified as heirlooms. They had bought the rest themselves at the drug store. Pretty, frosted gold balls, ropes of shiny red beads, and a few silly things — glass balls with bewildered-looking moose and nervous reindeer.

Not every decision would be made as quickly, and not all the compromises would be as easy, but as Nash sat on the sofa in front of the fire that night, arm around Glen’s shoulders as they admired their handiwork, he felt truly at peace.

“God rest ye merry gentleman,” sang Josh Groban from the media cabinet. “Let nothing you dismay.”

Until that moment Nash had always imagined joy as something big and bright and noisy. But in fact joy was also as small as the gleam of firelight on two pairs of slippers, obscure as the reasons for love, and quiet as two people who did not need words.



  1. Another beautiful coda :D I am happy to see that Nash and Glen are navigating the relationship together, realistically and maturely.

  2. Oh, wow. This one made me tear up a little :) Merry Christmas, Josh!

  3. This beautiful. Perfect for Christmas Day. Thank you so much for the warmth and love you spread over us all.

  4. This was a sweet one :) Glad to see Glen and Nash are finding their way and building their new life together! Thank you for another lovely coda. Merry Christmas! (⌒▽⌒)

  5. What a lovely surprise on Christmas Day! Thank you; it's lovely to see Glen recovered and he and Nash happy together.

  6. Thank you, Josh, for this sweet Christmas present so soon after IPS. Glen's & Nash's future was unsettled at the end, with many unanswered questions. The, "I've had my fill of lumberjacks." had me bursting out with laughter! :)

    Again, thank you for the thoughtful gift. Have a beautiful and Merry Christmas, Josh.

  7. That was sweet and fun and very merry <3

  8. I read this through happy tears...the recognition that love is not always loud and flashy is very powerful. It helps to be reminded of that at times. :-)

  9. "Build some new traditions together" - now that's the Christmas spirit :-)

  10. Even a coda on Christmas day itself! This is even more welcome because it was unexpected. Thank you, dear Josh!

    I loved to see how they are negotiating the beginning of they relationship. Good and solid beginnings!



  11. This is a truly Christmas, Christmas coda. :D

    Love these two. I always hoped we would get a chance to see these two grow together, so thank you!

    Also just want to say, Merry Christmas to you and yours, Josh. May you receive a few dreams come true for yourself. :)

  12. Oh, lovely! Thank you!

    I hope you and your family are having a wonderful Christmas.


  13. Yeah LOVE should feel like home; they say "home is where the heart is" - funny but traditions do build and somewhat define relationships - compromising, Glen and Nash are off to a great start.

  14. I loved this! It's nice to catch up with these guys and see they're making it work. thank you!

  15. Oh, thank you! I do love these guys so much! So glad to see them going through these lovely moments of discovering small but important things about each other :-)

  16. He agrees to a FLOCKED TREE!
    That really is total and true love. ;D

    (Okay, I know lots of people love them and they look beautiful, but I couldn't resist the joke.)

  17. I'm still going thru these wonderful codas, but I had to stop and comment here. Glen & Nash are among my favourite of your couples . In Plain Sight is probably the story from In Sunshine and in Shadow that I re-read more often. There is something in quiet charm in how their love story develops, the beauty of nature around them mirroring the beauty and solidity if their feelings, I can't resist. This coda reminds me of why I love this couple so much. They're still at the first stages of their relationship but something tells me no obstacle will be too big for them to overcome. They know how lucky they've been to have found each other. Thank you. This was the perfect gift on Christmas Day.