Friday, November 5, 2021

Okay, Here's What's Happening


 I mean, to the best of my knowledge, this is what is happening. 

Because, honestly, this year. 

I no longer have any kind of schedule because everything is so far out of whack. The problem with stacking so many preorders SO close together is, if one slides, it starts an avalanche, and that's kind of where we are now. 

(Which is why there is so little scheduled for next year. It's not that I don't plan to write, but I'll be mostly writing without deadlines. Because right now, at this moment in time, the very concept of DEADLINES ratchets up my anxiety and stress like nobody's business.)

Obviously--I mean, I hope it's obvious?--I'm doing my best to complete the final three projects of the year: Body at Buccaneer Bay, The Movie-Town Murders, and Hide and Seek. But I'm not going to offer release dates anymore, beyond saying, I'm going as fast as I can. Having made everyone wait, I'm trying to make sure the books are the best I can make them. I don't want to slop them out just because I'm dreading missing another deadline. I mean, if I was going to do that, I could've put these books out months ago and saved everyone a lot of exasperation.

The good news is, I just got back from two weeks of vacation, and I feel better than I have in, literally, years. Two years, to be exact. So I'm WAY calmer and a lot more optimistic. I'm even, dare I say it, productive. Or at least, I've had a very productive week. 

The bad news is, I can't magically fix the mess I'm in as far as missed deadlines and not enough time to do All The Things. I'm tackling the projects before me one at a time. I really, really do not want anything to slip into 2022. But there's a lot to do and we're entering the manic distractions of the holiday season. I'm trying to be optimistic but realistic, which is why I'm making no promises. Or at least, no promise beyond the promise to do my best.

One thing at a time. That's my mantra. 

I will say, this is a weird position to find myself in. I mean, I've missed deadlines before, I've been through burn out, I've struggled with anxiety and depression, but I've never been through anything like the past two years. And I know I'm not alone, I know my situation is not unique, I know that the angrier and more frustrated with myself I get, the deeper the hole I dig. I know these things. I accept these things. 

The only way out is one word, one sentence, one paragraph, one page at a time. So that's what I'm doing. That's where we are. 

Thank you for listening.









35 comments:

  1. Love and respect you, my friend. You are right, the last 2 years have been like nothing before. Hang in there... one word, one sentence, one paragraph, one page is all any of us can do. When the works come, we'll be here!

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  2. I think anyone who really likes your writing will deal with it. The 2 last years are catching hard with all of us (I was very serene during the first year but now I'm a mess physically and mentally) and that's the way it is. Nobody has a right to deny you to be human and feel anxious.
    And as Steve stated: you worth the wait <3

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    1. Maybe it's because I was overinvested in the idea that this year would be better, would be normal? Or just... things happened this year that took some getting past? I don't know, but it was definitely a more difficult year physically, emotionally, creatively, and even spiritually.

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  3. As much as I enjoy new Josh stuff, take care of you first!!! I can wait.

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    1. It was a struggle getting to the point of being able to admit where things stand.

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  5. Yes, please don't rush.

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    1. <3 I don't think anyone could accuse me of rushing at this point. ;-D

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  6. I understand your frustration and your need to produce and satisfy readers. As a reader, I will wait patiently for you. I love your stories and I love the care with which you write them. Take your time. We readers are here and will wait again. A big hug and positive thoughts for you.

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  7. Looking forward to whenever the books are coming. Esp. Movie-Town Murders. :)

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    1. Thank you so much! There's something about the dynamic between Sam and Jason that I just love writing.

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  8. I hate that it seems like you feel obligated to write. It should be that you’re doing it because you enjoy it. I’m happy to wait for whatever you can give us because you wanted to not because you had to. I like that you plan to take it a day at a time and that’s all your fans have a right to expect. Happy writing 😁

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    1. Well, I think that's the problem when something you do for love becomes your livelihood. Once deadlines and dollars are attached, some of the freedom and fun is inevitably lost. I think a lot of the pleasure will come back with a more realistic schedule. Making that happen is my new goal in life. :-)

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  9. Totally Agree. You are definitely worth the wait. Don't stress. We will be here.

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  10. I've read nearly all of your books and enjoyed most of them. But now I am writing you off. So many excuses. I'm done with ya.

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    1. I'm so happy not to care what someone like you thinks. Zero fucks to give, baby. :-)

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    2. Go get 'em, Tiger! I used to be a people person until people ruined it for me 😂

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    3. I love you so much, especially when you stand up for yourself.

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  11. NO worries! We'll all be here whenever your books land! Wishing you much inspiration and peace.

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  12. Bless you. I don't know how ANYONE could feel creative after the trauma of the last 2-4 years. You're fabulous and amazing and strong and you always will be worth waiting for. 🙂

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  13. I’m saddened by the negative comment. Your writing is excellent and remains so because you won’t published anything you feel is inferior. There are plenty of other authors to read while I wait for your latest. Please know that those of us who love you far outweigh those who don’t.

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  14. I don't know how we got to a place (well I have some conjectures... social media et al) where writers are expected to produce produce produce regardless of how their lives are going. I remember waiting (and waiting) with my daughters for the next Philip Pullman book to come out, but it never occurred to us to become irate with the author. Quality over quantity or speed. Your books are always high quality and worth the wait.

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  15. I just hope you take care of yourself and enjoy. I think I have three of your books preordered and they’ll come when they do. If they don’t I’ll miss them but I would not want you to see the interest and support of your readers as a shackle. You have already given us so many stories to read and reread. Thanks, be well, and happy holidays.

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  16. interesting - it never occurred to me to wonder why and how writers decide which and book to write and when. I always thought (silly me, believing in hollywood tropes) that writers go with the muse. and if Erato is not with you, then you don't write. I really can't see how anyone can write a book without inspiration: none of yours sound like the muse is not with you.
    I'm happy to wait for your new books: no matter how much you write, as long as you wake up in the morning there's always gonna be a new one to wait for ;-)
    as for the post itself: I'm glad you shared with us. we are glad to listen. are you listening too? it seems you're really trying to convince yourself (sorry, no sarcasm, judgement, criticism nor any combination. just asking - maybe it didn't occur to you. feel free to curse me - I'm a witch, so I'm protected :-D )
    so have a very creative and productive last 6 weeks of the year, and go with the flow. Who knows? maybe next year you'll have the idea for a new carachter (and here I'm missing the thumbs up emoji)

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  17. You can only do what's best for you, Josh. :) We will gladly wait and encourage you along the way! Taking your time and doing your best will make the end results only that much sweeter. For us, as readers, and, for you, as a creator.

    Take care! <3

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  18. What Steve said. Remember, you're a writer and your readers don't own you. I think the scheduled release concept is an artifact of our current culture where attention spans of any length are going extinct. Whatever your pace is, it's acceptable, because you are creating something new each time.

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  19. Hi Josh,
    Fellow author and blogger here. I just stopped by to tell you that one of my readers listed your books in her top books of the year. I thought you'd probably enjoy knowing that (I know I would!) The post is up and there will be other posts from readers in the following weeks. I'll also be sending out a notice in my NL about the various top read posts in early December. My blog is at: www.BearMountainBooks.com. It was supposed to be a "Top five reads for 2021" but none of my readers can count. At least not so far! :)

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  20. Hi Josh
    Love your books. I don’t mind the wait. You’ve already produced so much fantastic material, I’ll just reread your existing books. Deadlines are atrociously stressful, I hope you feel better soon. Thanks

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