New short story out today.
Not the book I had planned for or originally intended to write, but... I can't lie. I'm hugely, HUGELY relieved to have broken through whatever that was. Burnout? Dry spell? Creative force field?
I don't know, because the last time I suffered from burnout, it was actually a really productive period. I did a ton of planning and reading and note-taking. This wasn't like this. This was like a prolonged blank. I wasn't interested in reading or watching movies--I could tolerate nothing fictional. After an initial burst of listing preorders and a few sales, I suddenly lost interest in...everything. Well, other than my dogs, my garden, my family. I've never felt anything like it.
Writing was an absolute impossibility.
I'm not sure what exactly broke the spell given that the pandemic is spiking bigtime and my anxiety over the election is absolutely out of control. But something has changed. I feel calmer. Not optimistic, exactly, but calmer. Fatalistic? Whatever. I've started writing codas again for Patreon, I felt driven to complete this little story, and I'm actually looking forward to losing myself in the world of Cosmo and John.
That said, I don't trust myself right now. I have no idea how I'll feel after the election or in the coming months. But I'm writing right now and that's the good news.
BLURB:
“Maybe you’ll be next, Mr. Busybody!”
From well-respected investigative journalist to resident
busybody.
When former crime reporter Michael’s elderly friend Maurice
suddenly disappears, he fears the worst. But Michael is unable to investigate,
and no one is taking his suspicions seriously—least of all Nico, Maurice’s too slick,
too smooth, possibly guilty boyfriend.
The only person Michael can think of who might listen
is Leonard Drake, now a Lieutenant Detective with NYPD.
In fact, this excuse to contact his ex might just be what Michael
has been waiting three years for.
EXCERPT
The phone at the other end rang long enough that I started
to count, and then it clattered off the hook and a deep, pleasant voice said, “Drake.
Homicide.”
Never one to waste words, NYPD Lt. Detective Leonard Drake.
Given that we hadn’t spoken in three years, I was caught off
guard by how familiar his voice was. The warm rush of memories? Equally
unexpected.
I released the breath I’d been holding. “Hey,” I said
cheerfully. “Your misspent youth is calling.”
A couple of very long seconds ticked by before Len said
slowly, “Michael Woolrich. There’s a blast from the past.”
Not that I expected confetti and kazoos, but that total lack
of emotion was hard to read.
“To what do I owe this honor?” Len added.
“I don’t know about honor, but I might have a murder for
you.”
Maybe I imagined the creak of a chair in the background, but
Len’s voice was definitely more cordial, more relaxed as he replied, “Do tell.”
Murder was what had first brought us together. Our mutual raison
d’être. Murder had been the only thing we had in common, as it turned out.
That’s what I told myself, anyway.
“The victim—possible victim—is Maurice Moreau. He went
missing—appears to have gone missing—four nights ago. I think his partner
killed him.”
“And you know Maurice how?”
“He’s a friend.” I corrected, “He’s a neighbor I’m friendly
with.”
Len repeated thoughtfully, “A neighbor you’re friendly with.”
“Yes.”
“Where are you living now?”
“The Fontainebleau in Chelsea.”
“Swanky.”
I laughed. “Maybe once. Maybe in the forties. But yeah,
great atmosphere if you don’t mind a few ghosts.”
“And you think your friendly neighbor Maurice has now joined
the celestial choir?”
I felt myself smiling at Len’s turn of phrase. You don’t
expect metaphors from a cop, at least not outside Chandler, but Len was not
your ordinary cop. For one thing, he was no-bones-about-it gay, and while yes,
every police force in the country is trying to be—or appear that they’re trying
to be—more diverse and less discriminatory, in my experience, openly gay
officers are still a rarity.
“I’m afraid so. Yes.”
“Maybe he’s on vacation,” Len suggested. “Maybe he’s
visiting relatives. Maybe he and the boyfriend are on a second honeymoon. What
makes you think Maurice is dead?”
I didn’t really want to go into the Rear Window
aspect, didn’t want Len to know how much time I spent observing my neighbors,
didn’t want him to think I was developing voyeuristic tendencies in my old age.
Although, Talese was right—all journalists are voyeurs at heart.
I said, “Partly because of the way Nico, Maurice’s partner,
is behaving. Partly because Maurice once said if anything ever happened to him,
look no further than Nico.”
Silence.
Len said in his slow, considering way, “That’s quite a
revelation from someone you describe as a neighbor rather than a friend.”
“I know. And he was joking—mostly—when he said it. But…”
“But now that Maurice has ‘disappeared,’ you think maybe he
was serious. You said something about the way Nico is acting. How is Nico
acting?”
“Evasive, in my opinion.” Also dismissive, patronizing, bored,
annoyed—but that was Nico’s usual attitude toward me, so I didn’t place undue
importance on it.
Len’s tone remained neutral as he suggested, “Maybe Nico
feels that Maurice’s whereabouts are none of your business.”
“Maybe.”
I waited. If Len was the Len I remembered… But three years
is a long time. Len didn’t owe me any favors. And no one knew better than me
how far-fetched my story sounded.
Len said finally, “I’ll be blunt. This is so thin, it’s
transparent. Anyone but you, Michael, I’d be tempted to tell you to butt out of
other people’s relationships.”
I winced, opened my mouth, but Len wasn’t finished. “You always
had a nose for trouble, so unless you’ve changed a lot, I have to assume you’re
maybe onto something.”
We could take it for granted I’d changed a lot. Physically,
for sure, but also mentally, emotionally, and probably spiritually. Not that I’d
ever been very spiritual, unlike Len, who was a practicing Episcopalian and
sang in his church choir every Sunday.
“I could be wrong,” I said. “I hope I am. But if I went
missing, I’d like to think someone out there might notice and at least ask a
couple of questions.”
“And that’s about all I can promise,” Len said. “We’ll ask a
few questions and see what the boyfriend has to say.”
Relief washed through me. Not just the relief that here was
help for Maurice, help I couldn’t provide on my own. The relief of being
believed, of being taken seriously again. I missed being taken seriously.
But the last three years had taught me to be cautious.
“If my name could be kept out of it, I’d appreciate it.”
“Of course.”
“Thank you, Len.” I meant it. “I owe you one.”
He said crisply, “No. You don’t owe me anything. I quit
keeping score a long time ago.”
I was still trying to think of a reply when he hung up.
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Whatever inspired you for this short story, it was a pleasant surprise. Read it in one sitting and loved it!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much! Actually, what inspired me were my patrons. I asked for short story ideas and this one really appealed.
DeleteI'm right at the point you were before. I'm starting my 9th month in lockdown and everything was fine, until yesterday. And then suddenly I realized that I had totally lost faith in mankind. And now I feel just sad and as blank as a page. I can't find something to do, I find interest in nothing except my mom and my cat. It's just not me to be feeling like that...
ReplyDeleteStill the story seems nice and maybe reading it will finally catch my interest.
It's been so difficult these past months. I identify with your feeling of numbness, emptiness. And there will certainly be dark times ahead--the pandemic will get much worse before it gets better--but we've had some awfully good news this past week: the election results, the real promise of a vaccine, and hints that SCOTUS will not destroy the ACA and throw 20,000,000 people off their healthcare in the middle of a pandemic. Suddenly I see a path forward. Or believe I do. (which is kind of the same thing.)
DeleteI enjoyed this very much!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much, Loretta!
DeleteIt has definitely been hard to stay focused. COVID tragedy is heartbreaking. Trump rage is very draining. But I'm feeling slightly better. 😉 I'm very glad you wrote this great little story! I hope it has a carry-over effect and you feel stronger, more hopeful and more creative each day!
ReplyDeleteAfter the Triple Crown of good news this week, I do indeed feel stronger, more hopeful and a lot more creative. One day at a time! :-)
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